Well tonight was the worse nite since he moved out to the apt. I cannot believe things have spiraled out of control so fast. We had a normal dinner at the house and then H and I went shopping and he wigged out driving home. In a tone he only used when he wanted to hurt me and push me away (when OW was in the picture) he says he's on to this Divorce busting game - this mind control. I am like "What?" he knows I am the last person to play mind games if anything I am too honest...
H has done a 180 he says I just won't give him a D - I am in shock at this point - I do not cry or yell or say much. H has not mention D expect for his comment Sat nite when he says to me "If you would say you want a D now I would agree". It's not like he has been begging for D or for filing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTF??? Why did we tell the kids he's coming home- why has he been bringing stuff back here all weekend? H says the lease is broken and he has no choice - we'll stay together until we D - six months in MI or that I can go to an apt this time... It's just like when he was with OW (and I really don't think they are but who knows) and he is just pushing me to end it b/c he cannot do it himself (by himself). He just does not love me and he does not want to be in a loveless marriage. I am just in shock right now cannot even really cry (that much). I asked him to talk to C and see about not coming home - we cannot do this to our kids...I know it's the depression making him act this way but how do I get him to slow it down...
Please someone help me tonight - I am not sure who to call of my close friends - once again I have the heart broken. Maybe it's just time to let him go once and for all...
Me41 H44 * M16 yrs * D13 S10 8/06 H wants a D * 1/07 OW Truth 2/07 Searated * 7/07 H moved home First Thread Surviving Separation Now Piecing