Things are tough right now...my gorgeous (I'm serious, he looked like a young, blond, Tom Selleck) 45 year old baby brother died Tuesday the 15th. My sister and I were with him. I've been at my parents since Sunday the 13th, last time he was concious enough to make eye contact. It is so hard for everyone. He wasnt just a brother, he was a great friend and uncle, and someone everyone always counted on. My parents are having such a hard time, as are all the nieces and nephews and everyone else. I'm still in shock, and sick to my stomach. We put his picture from this past christmas on the memorial booklet, he looks so healthy still, it's impossible to believe he is gone, and looked like an old man from Auschswitz when he died.
Today is also monsters birthday. urp again.
5/5 was our 28th wedding anniversary, we actually went out of town overnight (alone) to celebrate. That is the 1st time in many many years. I remember last year h refused to even go out to eat, I couldnt understand why, then found out he was back with monster.
While we were gone, a huge rainstorm hit, about 10 inches in 8 hours or so...so of course there was a great deal of flooding, water came within 5 feet of our house, but didnt get in. I'm still glad we went....
Still waiting arrival of grandbaby, due 6/8, but seems to be anxious to get here....
I am so stressed, never sure when the tears will hit....H is broken hearted too, my brother was a good good friend of his....one of the things he said he would miss if we split up.
