Toncatt, I can feel the pain you are going through. It is fantastic that you have rested in God's arms as you have gone through this. Something important for you to heal is to forgive her. This will be the hardest thing to do but just like God has carried you through this you need to trust Him completely and let go the anger you feel toward your hard hearted wife. She needs sympathy because she is so blind and in pain herself, regardless of how it appears. I am not saying you need to let her back in your life. But you need to show the unconditional love (Agape) that God has for you and asks that you show it to others, even the worst of your enemies. If you are using your anger toward her to firm up your resolve to accept what she has done, you will be much better off if you are able to feel God's love to your wife that He has. He loves both of you equally. Is He disappointed in her? I don't know but probably so. He does not want those who belong to Him to harbor anger toward another that He loves. And He does love her. Let it go and give true peace to your heart brother.
I know how you feel because my best friend of 21 years and wife of nearly 17 years has abandoned my three children and I for a life totally different than her Christian upbringing and her former devotion to God. I do not call her my best friend lightly. I have a sensitive but cautious heart because I have had people in life hurt me terribly before. Whether your W is in MLC or not, it does not matter. She is not well. She chose the world over her family; over a man who obviously has been completely torn apart by her betrayal. Remember when Jesus died on the cross, it was for everyone, not just those who love Him. He died for your wife as well.
Get peace in your heart, my brother. We love you here.
Me:56, W:51 D:26,S:24,S:22 Married:18 Bomb 9/27/06 Separated 11/27/06 Divorced 10/6/08 Leaving it up to God