lostmybfriend

[runningoutoftime]

Weirdly, my relationship with my husband is probably closer than it has ever been. I think he does appreciate me more than he ever did and I also think when you make it through extremely difficult and challenging events it can sometimes strengthen a relationship. Maybe it's like when you break an arm.... it resets, heals and ends up stronger.

But really the best thing I learned is I'm much stronger than I used to be. By really letting go of my marriage and having to create a life for me and the kids without him I finally learned I'm much stronger than I ever thought. I CAN live without my husband and eventually be happy. I love him, would miss him, would be completely devistated for awhile, and would always choose to be with him (we've been married forever, he's my best friend and the father of my kids)... but I can heal and move on... and I'm not going to be angry and blame him for his choices. I love him enough to want him to do what's best for him. He gave me good years, two great kids and a nice life. Yeah I'll be sad and a little angry ("catty" about any woman he dates!), but I know life can still be good. It's a really great feeling to know I can do that. I have friends, reach out to others, life is an interesting adventure regardless of the road...