A rough morning this morning. No particular reason for it, just woke up this morning with that pit in my stomach and the knot in my chest. Nothing this weekend was different, W even stayed home and didn't go out for the second weekend in a row so I don't know why I feel all the anxiety this morning.
How is it that we think we are handling the situation and are adjusting pretty welland then have a morning that it all hits hard out of the blue? I've been doing this to some degree now for almost 18 months. Simply said, it sucks.
Dude, you've been through the emotional ringer for 18 months, fear and doubt will crop up, you have to just let it be. Don't let it define you or the work you've been doing. I know we all want the pain to be over immediately but it won't be. It will linger and try to get to you for some time I'd guess. So, just don't dwell on it. Don't repress it, let it be there, but don't hang on to it, just let it go and stay positive.
My weekend was brutal and it took me til this morning to let it go. Letting go is strength, holding on is weakness. I try so desperately to hold on to any figment of my W and our M that it makes me feel sad. At least now I can idnetify the problem, let it be, and release it. I don't dwell on it, I don't let it get me too down, and I get past it pretty quickly...
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
