I'm having all these random thoughts....doesn't it make complete sense that he feels like we're over? For the first time since I cheated, aside from threatening to leave, I've pushed back. Now he's looking to control some other way, through not allowing me in his truck. He has to control the same way I do, but we do it in different ways. I want to run, to get away. He is content within the confines of our house and our routine so he looks for other ways to control.
Nops, what do I do with the rest of this year? Do I just pretend that I don't care if he wants to take separate vehicles? Do I refuse? Does the year even matter anymore? It was supposed to be for BOTH of us to try and to commit, not just me.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
