I did have a great time out last night - I danced my #@!* off, and I met some new women friends who all have young children too. They're all married and I feel good that I was able to genuinely wish them long and happy marriages. I would not wish what I've been going through on anyone. But, I am also very proud of myself and grateful to my friends and the support I get here for walking through it with grace and dignity.
When H was here picking up S4.5 today he asked me about some nice sunglasses that he and his mom had bought for me (he saw some other ones next to my keys). I told him they were broken. He offered to get them repaired. I said ok. It was totally weird.
The thing bothering me lately is not wanting him to think that we are friends and that just because I can be kind and friendly to him doesn't mean I have forgiven him and all is well. It seems like he just wants to pretend that everything is fine.
He still hasn't even filed for D (only because he's broke and doesn't have the where-with-all to do it) and yet he behaves as if we were never even married and we're friends.
The best I can do is be nice for the sake of our S and for my sense of integrity. I'm just concerned that if I'm too nice to him it will be like saying what he did (and continues to do) is acceptable.
Any thoughts?
Monica
My sitch: Me 40 H 30 M 8 yrs 1 S5.5 Bomb Oct 2005 Sep Nov 2005 H w/ Ow I filed for LS June 2007 H responded w/ D 2007 I have sole P custody, joint L Just need to take care of Final Judgement papers
