He texted me text me this morningand told me to have fun at my brother's party- I sent : we plan on it. Well here is how our text convo went

H: Yeah I am sure the boys will have fun
M" we all will
H: Lisa I do think about this, all of this
M: what do you mean by that
H: well I don't believe you love me- and right now I don't love you like that- I respect you alot
M: ok well
H: I am not dating, seeing or anything anyone else- I will swear on my kids about that one
H: I am not going to file anytime soon-I don't know what the future holds
M: I don't either
H: just don't push me
M: I just miss you, us (wrong I know but I felt it at the time)
H: if I had to choose now I would say - we weren't going to work out
H: just have fun today okM
M: I will


I am so afraid to say anything- it may be the wrong thing. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


Me:37
H:38
6 kids
first bomb 8/05 (ow involved)
piecing 7/06
second bomb 3/07 ow involved
wash rinse repeat....
huge move to start over 2/11
more affairs
H left for good 8/12