Do what you want to do..ie, what will make you happy (and keep in mind, you can have no happiness with your H as things stand) so it has to be all about you.
And with the additional input from you, I would cut off his cash if I were you. The financial part should be really of concern. He doesn't love you as he is willing to flush you and your son down the toilet. but that is how alcoholics are.
You are in an addict/enabler relationship. Please seek help. It is necessary for your well-being. (Notice I said yours. You can do a damn thing about him.)
