Maybe you are delusional, but if you are, it is only because you are trying to do the right thing. One of the women in my group in a similar situation was about my age at the time (45 or 46) once said after the 28th time, she had had enough. The funny thing is that 28 was the exact number. How do I know. Because I said "28?" and she said, "yes, 28."
I would say the danger you face in avoiding confrontation is that one day the love will just die without ever confronting.
But since you have decided to accept, please do the things you want to do.
