This post is for my venting purposes ...

My H's last night escapades have once again "put me over the edge".

Yesterday I was out shopping and H called me on cell and told me to meet he and his buddies up at a newer restaurant in our area for dinner. I agreed and did just that.

We had a nice dinner .. but continued on to one of our local watering holes. I did this ONLY because of another women friend that was with the whole group .. she really wanted me to accompany them for the night. (Generally, I don't do this as I feel that it eggs H on with his drinking and spending all of the money.)

Throughout the night, I put several comments ..that were made.. together and "figured out" that my H .. on one of his many rides with his buddies, took a younger woman (bar-fly) on one of their motorcycling excursions. And apparently she was showing off her "personalities" (as my H would call it) while they were at this other small town hole-in-the-wall bar.

So, anyway .. when I caught the first part .. about my H allowing this young women to ride on the back of HIS motorcycle I asked H about it. He made a huge sigh and said something to the affect that it wasn't even 1/4 mile .. just a ride from one local bar to the next. Well .. as the night wore on, I put more things that were said together and discovered that it could not have been just that (the 1/4 mile thing.) She definitely DID ride with him on the whole Sunday afternoon excursion!

After I "caught" him lying .. and made him "fess up" he got VERY mad at me.

Unfortunately this was AFTER he came home last night (midnight) from drinking all evening and then he took his ambien and mirapex. Well, when he takes those two at night (IF he hasn't been drinking) he is already goofy .. a little bit scarey. But after he has been drinking he is more than goofy .. definitely scarey!

At about 2 a.m. this morning he finally went to bed .. but not not before he burned a bunch of pictures and other stuff that he says is just "junk" and he does not want to keep. He says that he doesn't want all that "junk" anymore and that he doesn't want to "remember". (He is manipulating me, I know.)

These pictures were MY life too .. and I am just sobbing here, that he DID something like this. I have no idea what more he burned.

I guess I will post more later .. as I am just too upset to continue on.

Thanks to all who take the time to read.


UpNdOwN