Well, it happened. We had "the talk." I couldn't stand it anymore. And I knew I was at risk of doing something stupid if I didn't tell H the truth. So, we had a 6 hour marathon discussion/fight/cry fest last night. My eyes are still little puffy slits, looks good. Anyways, he actually started the conversation off by basically asking me if I was happy. That was enough to make me lose it and just told him that the past few months and weeks have been culminating in the discussion. We have our own growing distance again, my friend is getting separated and that is bring all sorts of memories and feelings back to me (envy, desire independence, desire for sexual connection etc), and then the final straw, OM contacting me last week. It was the right thing to do. I just told him exactly what I told you. At first, he reacted just like I expected. He was upset and hurt, but was not very angry about it and didn't seem overly concerned. So I confronted him on that BS and told him that his response is part of the bib problem. He doesn't seem to care. That's when he started to flip out. He said almost exactly what Stigmata and Nop and others said about OM. He smashed our table and said "Who the F*ck is this guy? He's going to F*ck up my l ife and out M!" Insisted I block his email. And we continued to discuss "us." Talked all about out sexual differences, our desire differences, everything. He kept vaccilating back and forther between crying and being super pissed off. Saying things like " Get your sh*t together! You are going to destroy our family for some guy who F*cks good?! Get your prorities straight!" Boy I had never seen him this riled up, and I really needed to see it. I told him as much and I think he understood. The end result was basically that nothing was going to stop us from keeping the M together. I feel better today. Hopeful. And I think we are at least starting with an honest slate again. I'm not sure if the sexual problems can ever be "fixed" but our emotional connection is the most important thing. So we made good progress last night. LFL
