You know what jumped out at me, and I don't know how long you've been on it, but I remember the depo shot absolutely messed w/ me a lot! If I remember correctly and this was years ago, but it really messed w/ my drive AND my moods. Also, not saying you SHOULD do this, but when I went off my meds (AD), my drive went through the roof AND I ended up feeling better. I realized that maybe I didn't needs the meds, I just needed to revamp my brain and my thinking/moods, etc. w/o them.

Maybe next time you don't feel like ML, do it anyway and see if that doesn't change things a bit. Like bring you guys closer and make you feel as if you can still reach out even though things are going perfectly?? Just an idea.

I stay on the SSM Board cuz I like the people over here. I don't really think I would put you in the "newcomers" category anyway.

I understand the appreciation/validation issue.

Check out my thread & how I'm feeling this a.m. -- it could apply to you as well \:\)

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10