H came home again tonight. He finished working on his car and get the new motor in and then came over to our house. He took a shower and asked me if I wanted to watch a DVD. We ate dinner and then watched some TV. We fell asleep early. We were both really tired.
I'm so glad that he came home again, but he seems more distant than before, almost like when he came home the first time before going to Hawaii. He's not quite as "loving" as he was being as far as reaching out to me for affection, kisses, etc. I guess maybe I need to pull back some more and make him reach out for me. This is so hard to find the right "line" to walk in order for things to work right.
It's the middle of the night. I woke up and couldn't sleep, so I took a sleeping pill and thought I'd do some computer work for a while until it kicks in.
Any suggestions/ideas you have about how to bring out more affection from him would be great. I really long for more attention/connection OUTSIDE of our bedroom. How can I work towards bringing that about??? I know this is all going to take a ton of time, but I feel like I'm stepping backwards in that respect right now...
