Thanks imLin and JRyan - Even with the positive changes that I think I'm making -- GAL, learning to let go of controls, etc. -- these down times just don't seem to go away. I have so many things to be thankful for - great friends, wonderful kids, etc. -- and yet sometimes I'm just so tired of the changing.
And while I know it seems potentially naive to say no OW -- I've wondered a few times myself -- I lean toward the fact that H seems more depressed than anything, if that makes any sense, and that even my more suspicious friends agree that H doesn't act like there's an OW. He said once early on that the reason he wants a divorce is because then he could try out being intimate with someone else. Nothing like having a former Catholic altar boy with ACOA issues for a WAS! Still, I hear your words of caution, imLin.
I'm alone at home for the first time since H left - S1 is camping and S2 is sleeping at H's place - so that's given me the courage to post, and you both helped tonight. Onwards to tomorrow (and tomorrow and tomorrow, creeps in this petty pace...)
Still, I hear your words of caution, imLin.
