HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[LisaLost]

I know and really am way too busy to put too much effort into H right now. I do have moments and I come here and post. I am enjoying my baby and my big boys very much. My kids are amazing ( all of our kids are!!! they have to be they have us as parents right guys?) H is in my thoughts sometimes and I bawl my eyes out at night but I am blaming it on hormones so I don't get to hard on myself.

H did call this afternoon. Asked about kids- how they were doing. Asked me how I felt and then said to me and I quote" I think about us more than you know and I am not running down to courthouse tommorrow. I think alot about you- you looked great at the school already skinny again, just give me some time" I just said that I am worried about myself and the kids right now and while I love him and want to save our M -that me getting myself together is top priority right now. He said that really there wasn't anyone that he was trying to make me hurt b/c he feels I hurt him. He says I think he has this wonderful life and he doesn't he misses his family. I said I miss mine too. He said he doesn't want to argue anymore. Baby started crying so I told him I had to go. I said have a good night and he told me he same then we hung up.

ok WTH? I was caught off guard so i probably didn't handle things right. what is he telling me here? Is reality sinking in? he text a few minutes ago to have a nice evening.


How do i handle this?

lisa