I'm on my way out the door--probably won't be back til tomorrow, but I wanted to send you hugs and some words of observation.
Girl, you have got your head way too far up into H's world. YOu are analyzing his every move to death. It's okay to sometimes love him and sometimes not--we do that within the confines of a marriage too--it's normal. YOu do not have to stop loving him to detach but you do have to let go. You are torturing yourself by hanging onto him. You still expect him to suddenly change--not just out of MLC but into someone he is not and never was--a good mate for you.
I know you know this. And I also know it is not as easy is say it and it shall be done but woman, you're gonna have to fake it til you make it. Keep as much distance as you can between the 2 og you (this helped me detach) and get on with your life. Stop rehashing the stuff he said. Purge the words from your mind and consciousness, they mean nothing anymore. Stop trying to figure out what stage of MLC he's in. NOne of that matters in the big picture and it just keeps you up in his business and stuck in emotional limbo.
HOw he has changed or not changed also really has no bearing on what you now need to do. Listen, I know this hurts but he did do you a favor and once you begin to see and embrace that, you can really start to live.
I love you and say this with much love. You are too fantabulous for this. Show us what you've got Nicola 'cause the world is waiting for you to bloom!
