nothing great to report. H did not call last night. He did text me this morning twice about signing the kids up for summer soccer. 3 of them will be playing and it's $60.00 a kid so I told him that he could do it online and pay for it with either his debit or credit card. He asked me about Sunday with the kids and I reminded him about my brother's graduation and party. This is something I don't want to miss with the kids. This is my brother that I just found and I want to go and meet up with my dad and other siblings and try to build a relationship with them b/c I never knew them until now. He was really nice about that- normally he would have raged about it.I asked him why he was being so nice- he said that he just did not want to fight anymore. I guess the new ow is good for him!!!
He told me that "we" messed up our marriage and that nothing will fix it because "we" let it get too far out of hand. He said he knows he never wants to try again- that we tried and it didn't work. I remained silent I would have said anything I would have cried- b/c it hurts to hear him say that. He says again that "we" just don't belong together and he wasn't happy with me. I did not ask him to talk about this he did it on his own- and he said it with such calm in his voice- he said he hasn't filed anything yet.
It is really over- I don't think I can DB this marriage anymore. He has found someone that makes him happy- how does he do that? just like that just jump right on into another woman's bed AGAIN= after saying what a mistake it was the first time with the old ow.
I hate all this crying and feeling helpless. I want my marriage and I love my husband so much.Do you guys think it is time to give up? Can this be saved again?
love,lisa
Me:37 H:38 6 kids first bomb 8/05 (ow involved) piecing 7/06 second bomb 3/07 ow involved wash rinse repeat.... huge move to start over 2/11 more affairs H left for good 8/12
