Thanks, Lin. It's great to hear from you. I hope you are doing well.

I just scheduled an appointment to show our job site to someone in about 45 minutes. It will be good for me to get out of the house for a bit.

Regarding going dark, that was what I initially did a couple of weeks ago before talking to Jody, as I wasn't sure how to handle that he had stayed home for two nights and then told me he'd be home the third night and instead went back to her house. I didn't want to do the wrong thing, so I just went dark and did nothing until I spoke with Jody.

She said the better thing to do than to go dark is to act as if nothing had changed or happened and to keep being the person I was being that hopefully was drawing him closer to me. So that is what I have been continuing to do since then, and it appears to be working. In fact, it's undeniable that it's working in that he has stayed with me 6 times in the past two weeks compared to a TOTAL of 5 times from November through April. I think that speaks for itself. And I think that is why I'm hurting more now. I feel closer to him as well, so it's a greater sense of loss I suppose for him to go back to her now.

I know I shouldn't talk to him when I'm upset. I get that. I'm so afraid of doing something to backslide when I truly feel like we are making some good progress. I also just wish I understood that status of what is going on with them. I have to think that by staying with me so much more in the past couple of weeks than he has been staying with her that she may be starting to get uncomfortable herself. Hopefully that will occur and she will be the one to start smothering him.

So I don't know that going dark is the right thing to do just yet since what I have been doing, which is the exact opposite of that, has seemed to make a huge difference. Yes, it hurt that I did the whole wine and crackers thing yesterday only to have him go back to her, but I just have to pick myself back up and realize that it was maybe too soon for that, but that's okay. I tried and felt good about it. I also have to face the fact that he very well could have felt guilty for staying with me so much and that that is the true reason he couldn't sleep the other night rather than the business. It is what it is. It's better if I just take it at what he said, that he was just having a lot of thoughts about the business. It does me no good to think otherwise.

Thanks again for checking in with me. I hope you enjoy your class.