I will be home at least part of the day and this evening; I would love to talk.
I'm afraid that if I really do act as if we are getting back together, I'll just be disappointed again. I can't take anymore heartbreak. Last night, I lay in bed sobbing, feeling so lonely. I just wanted to die ~ really. I can't bear the thought of them spending their little holiday together, having fun w/o kids, and then every second weekend (H wants to change the schedule; he finds having the kids every Sunday "onerous.").
And here I am, all alone. I've been alone for so long, ISLH. Even when H was here, I was alone and lonely for so many years. I don't know what to do anymore. I am just so sad.
He does not want to be with me. That's that.
Thank you for your support. I'm going to go back to bed for a bit, I think.
Love, Nicola
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