I just wanted to check in with you and say "hi." I hope you're doing well and hanging in there. I haven't been on the board as much the past couple of weeks. I have been taking a break from thinking about this so much. But I wanted you to know I've been thinking about you and hope things are going well. I know it's got to be so hard to have him so far away. At the same time, maybe sometimes it's easier that way for now - it gives you time, as you said, without having to walk on eggshells and have the situation be so "close" to you. I know when I was in Las Vegas it helped me so much just to not have the "opportunity" to snoop and be in his space and he in mine, etc. It was really hard at times, I admit that. But overall, I think it helped me a lot. AND, H told me that it was during my time away that he made the decision to give us another try! So think of it that way. This is your chance to step back, take some time to yourself to think and read books and learn about yourself and this situation and what you want out of life, etc. While it was one of the hardest things I've done, it seems to have made the most difference thus far. He took notice that I wasn't at his beck and call. He thought about what I was doing all alone in Vegas by myself not contacting him... You could indeed use this situation to "go dark" for even just a few days, as I know it's hard with the business and all to do it for any length of time. But maybe just take some baby steps of your own and take a few days with no communication with him to just relax and do some fun things and read and really reflect on your life and what you want out of it. It not only will hopefully help you to clear your head, but it may just be what the doctor ordered to make your H start wondering what you're up to while he's away... Think about it. And know that I'm thinking about you. Hang in there, my fellow trooper!
