You've got to get rid of the fear if you want to get on w/ piecing, right? You're going to have to continue to stick out your neck and take chances. If you've gotten to this point and now W is willing to come back and take on some of the R work, you need to hike up your boot straps and get in there and do the best DB'ing you know how!!
You're probably still unhappy & fearful b/c the entire sitch happened in the first place. It sucks. But if you want to keep your M, you've got to continue to be willing to put in the effort & work it's still going to take.
It's not over yet. Keep up that positive thinking. And there is a "success stories" forum!!
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10