Should I be Done?

[johns_blondie]

Finished...First of all, you don't sound like you're finished. But as Aud put it WOW. You have really been through a lot and very patient to boot. I can't imagine actually having to sit and listen to my spouse telling me about meeting and sleeping with another.

I have been going through my situation for 2 years now. We actually divorced for 2 1/2 months...I'll call it a hiccup in our marriage....but I have been dealing with the face that my husband had been cheating on me for the past 9 months sincw we re-married.

I don't exactly know how or what happened...but about 3 weeks ago he changed. He let her go...and he came back to our marriage fully committed.

I had stopped looking for evidence of what he was doing because it was only causing me heartache and I turned it all over to God. I asked for peace in my life and I started living like it was going to happen...and it did. It completely changed me and my attitude.

I have had more than my share of worries and he was going to have to take a back burner. I have started treatments for some health issues and I think he finally saw that he could lose me other than to another man. He could lose me forever. It changed the way he looked at me in one way...but in another way it empowered me...and he knew it. I had nothing to lose...and that's the attitude I took. It woke him up when I wasn't paying so much attention to him.

On top of all of that...he just deployed to Baghdad for 6 months. He won't be here to keep his eye on his girl and it's driving him crazy. I guess he thinks I'm going to turn the table on him....but I would never do that. I love him and always have.

I have heard nothing but I love you and I miss you sooo much since he's been gone. I know it's over between him and the OW but I still guard my heart....and I probably always will.

I don't know if any of this makes sense to you other than this...If you love her...STAND. There is another site I would encourage you to go to. It will give you encouragement through the good and bad days. It's http://rejoiceministries.org

Keep in touch....I'm mostly a lurker too. But I've gotten a wealth of knowledge from these folks that have helped me through this and you will too. By the way....WAY TO GO on your weight loss!!!