i don't feel like a studd i just kind of am following my heart. i don't know why i have held on for so long but i have i just have something inside me that says don't give up.

for some reason i don't think she is certain that this is what she wants.

i guess i will pma and give some reasons to why i think my wife still loves me.

-she hasn't filed or takin me up on going and getting this thing behind us

-she has been more friendly on the phone which a couple of months ago would have been hard to believe.

-she is still giving reasons to why we are seperated which leads me to believe that she still is wrestling with the decesion.

-she gave multiple signs before moving out that she still loved me.
do i think it is a waste of $ for her to move out.
we should start buying a certain wine for the house
told friends we will start having kids next year
said the seperation won't lead to a divorce
said seperation is only temporaily.
said our last night together wasn't our last one.
came to one of my games and said she will come to alot
-she called and got my mom a mothers day gift. would this be done if she was certain that she wanted to go. wouldnt she start breaking away from this.

-she did so much convincing of herself and others how great she is doing which i know for a fact is not true.

-she is buying alot of emotional type things that she can't afford because she wants to feel better. i think she is probably digging a hole for herself knowing that she can always come home.

-when i validate she backs off.

-you don't call someone 12 times over a car.

there are many other positive signs

my things is once she moved out she just backed so far off and her wall got so much stronger. why?

Time, Space and Patience.