During this talk she mentioned that I still pressure her for physical things.
I looked at her like she was from Mars, I couldn't help it. W said, "what is that look for?"
I told her that this will probably come back to bite me but here goes, we haven't had sex in over a month, closer to two months. I haven't said a word about it. Yes, I did joke around with you the other day but give me a break, I knew nothing could happen even if things were great, just due to time restraints, and the kids running in and out of our room and everywhere else as they were getting ready for school.
She said, "whatever, it's still there".
After our talk, W went into the bathroom to take a shower and get ready for bed. At first I went downstairs, God help me but that bottle of vodka was calling my name like never before. It got even worse when I decided to just have a coke and I noticed that W had picked up some orange juice when shopping earlier. Vanilla flavored vodka and orange juice tastes like a dreamcicle on steroids. God, it was hard but I just got a small glass of coke and walked away.
I get upstairs and am determined to just get in bed and go to sleep. W is out of the shower and lying down watching TV. Again, I shouldn't have but I said, "look, regarding the physical side of things, the only reason I would want to despite everything that is going on is, I know you haven't been with anyone else, I haven't been with anyone else so it's safe. We don't have to worry about anything goofy, Lord only knows what is out there nowadays. It WOULD feel good and relieve some tension for both of us."
W said, "yeah so I do that and then you think everything is okay, or anything has changed for me".
I told her, "look, I know nothing changes for you. I get that."
A minute later she is pulling the covers off our bed and initiating ML?!?!
It was great, anything is great after 2 months, but what the heck?
