Got home from work last night and H was already there doing yard work. He'd already done a TON! We have a large yard that requires a LOT of weedeating. Cooked a quick dinner then took D8 to soccer practice. H stayed home. When I got back he had cleaned the kitchen and the basement. He's also staying home today to continue cleaning and getting the house ready for all his stuff to come back.
On the way back from practice S5 (he likes to go and run around the field with the team and the coaches are really nice about having him there. Treat him like "one of the girls" LOL)noticed the box of toys that H had bought them was in the front seat of my car. He seemed really concerned that it was coming to our house. I explained to him again that Daddy doesn't have his apartment anymore. He's living with us again. He wanted to know what I was going to do with the toys. I told him that they would be at our house for him to play with now. He asked what would happen to them if Daddy moved out again. I told him that daddy wasn't going to move out again. He then asked, "What will we do if he changes his mind, mommy?" I told him that I didn't think he would because he loves them, he loves me and he missed us and wants to stay with us forever, but that if he did we would be fine just like we were fine last time he moved out. D8 then asked how come he moved out in the first place if he still loved you. I told her that he thought he didn't love me like he needed to to be married to me, but that now he realizes he does. She then said, then how come you guys were always hugging and holding hands and being nice to each other and stuff? You don't do that unless you love someone. I told her that I think he really did love me all along, but he was just confused for a while.
She asked about a million other questions as well. I guess they are afraid he's going to move out again too. Very understandable. I only hope him moving in wasn't a bad move. It doesn't feel like it right now. Right now it feels so right. Everything feels like it should, but if he goes again it will devestate those kids.
I have to go to a funeral tonight. My maid of honor died this week of complications due to lymphoma (she was totally cancer free, but her liver failed due to the anti-rejection medication they were giving her for the bone marrow transplant). Very sad.
Hope all have a good day on here.
There is only one person who could ever make you happy, and that person is you. David Burns, Intimate Connections
