Afterall..... This IS my life IV for heatherg

[heatherg]

you guys did sound like you were doing so well. Had he quit talking about D?

Well, it's me that usually brings up divorce. I said I would give things another year.

I never got to the point where I thought I would be ok because I still loved him!! Is this how you feel? He's a part of you? and the thought of being w/o him is scary?

Yes, that's very much how I feel. Plus there's also my kids. They are 4 and 6 and I can't imagine being without them, just this trip to Vegas is making me miss them terribly.

Are you going to try to call him or are you just going to wait to talk to him when you get home?

I think I'm just going to try to talk to him when I get home.

I'm getting the feeling you don't want it to be over with, but feel like he's done the damage to the point where you SHOULD want it to be over with.

This is exactly right. With the way he has treated me, how can I still love him? I disappoint myself because I always viewed myself as stronger than this.

I'm going to try to tell him that the 'not up for discussion thing' is not going to work, but I can't make him talk. Past history with H is that if he says it's not up for discussion only chinese water torture would make him talk. He is very stubborn.