Ok, I totally get it. I don't like it, but this gives me a perfect example of what I NEED to do as well as at least one place I've been screwing up. Thanks, guys.
So, as I said, I heard Oldtimer's words as soon as I sent it, and realized what I did. He called me, said he was "replying" to my email. He said he was sorry, he didn't mean it any certain way. Asked if I could respect that sometimes he is just at work. I said yes, I totally get that, but like I said, *tone* doesn't take any longer. He said ok, but I seemed to need this kind of stuff a lot (probably an important thing for me to remember). I said I realize that, he's probably right and I'll try to just let those things go when he's at work. But I asked him to be careful of HOW he says things and how he responds to me, because it does make a difference. We both agreed. I told him I remembered that his favorite shows were on tonight and I planned to have the kids busy so he could have some time to watch them, etc. We ended it on a positive note.
Next I read the replies from you guys. I placed a 2nd call just telling him I love him and I was sorry, I realized later what I did was not helpful to things. I was acting in a way I didn't like. He was nice back and I said I was looking forward to a margarita with him tonight! I then said, "I really liked your kiss this morning." He said, "thanks." I don't know why I can't say something "hotter." I will try. It feels very unnatural to me. I need to try though.
Since Joey has not been a total WAS, I have had a hard time seeing how the DR stuff was applying to me. Now I do better. When things improved for a short bit, I started feeling like I was ready for him to start giving to me, but I realize now that it's going to take even more patience at that point, because he likely won't be ready. Ugh. I will try and focus on the positive. There ARE good things going on, even if it's not picture perfect like I want it.
