my h came over tonight and we started to argue and i told him that he needed to leave and he said no we need to talk. then we started to talk and somehow it went to now. i started getting upset and told him that he needed to leave and went to put something up in the bedroom. he followed and cornered me. he kept wanting to wrap his arms around me and hold me. i told him no that i did not want him to touch me that i am hurting right now.i feel like throwing up when he touches me. he has hurt me more than anyone ever could. i am moving on with my life. i have to try to find happy things to think about but any happy memories that i think about contain him and they are not so happy anymore. he was my best friend, lover, and husband and i have to face that big bed alone every night. i finally got away from him a went into my son's room and shut the door and he left. if i knew that he would come back to me then i would let him comfort me but he doesn't. we are not even divorced and he is already talking about marriage to the ow. (and today is the day that him and the ow is moving in together)i am so tired of hearing i am so sorry from him. i feel like if he was so sorry then he would leave her and come work on our marriage. i feel so stupid for letting him know how much he has hurt me and that i am still hurting.
me-30 h-38 m-11 yrs s-6 s-7 ss-13 h left-april 21,2007 found out of ea april 1, 2007
