That was a deep R talk indeed. Very constructive by the sounds of it. You both understand each other more and it looks like there will be plenty more R talks to come now that you both realise it's okay to discuss the R openly. As the A fades for you, I think so will her guilt, which will hopefully mean less funks. Time. This all takes time, let's learn to embrace it - I need to take that advice too!
You're doing good
Dienne - Focusing on what's precious, the rest doesn't matter