You have lots of good things going for you...as for telling your wife how much you are hurting...it's goodfor her to really know, but don't say it too many times...tell her also when you're not feeling so much pain, and that things are getting better for you...I look back and my h and I have really never complimented each other..or praised each other, so the last time he dropped me off at home I said "thanks for the movie" and he kinda smiled and said"your welcome" we forget to look at the good in our s when all we have known for along time is hurt..when we can do more of that, then healing continues.
take care
Sue

p.s. glad to hear about sister