Hey guys.

Quoting LL:
there are a lot of possitives, focus on them or you will be pulled into a neg world you don't want to live in.
I agree I am getting pulled into this negative world and I really am doing my best to climb out. It's like a damn black hole, not even light can escape. I appreciate you pointing out some of the positive things that occured the last couple of days. Good reality check. Maybe I really now need to make a concerted effort to focus on the positive things and try to ignore the negative. Easier said than done, but I think I better. Thanks... It's true what I've heard a number of people say, DBing really becomes a challenge with our Ses come home (of course, I'm speaking more figuratively when I say "coming home"). So, in light of what you have made me see, LL, I will post a few positive things that have occurred over the last couple of days:
- W snuggles lots in bed each night...always touching.
- W now puts "love W" on notes.
- W held my hand in bed the other morning and this morning.
- W gave me some time to myself yesterday after work to do some woodworking.
- W went to church with me on Sunday.
- W and I have been talking more lately...just about anything.
- W wants to go to New Mexico for April anniversary.
- W is reading Love Languages and seems to be applying "some" of the principles, such as little touches here and there and words of affirmation.
- W is on a path of really getting herself in shape at the gym.
- W got an employment application for a place she's interested in working.
- W has acknowledged my positive changes and encourages me all of the time.
- W calls me at work a little more these days.
- W is doing more positive stuff with the kids...really trying to connect.
- W is not smoking as much as she was, and has even said she doesn't crave it very much.
- W is not going to bars like she was.
- W is more pleasant to be around...and alien doesn't show up as much.

LL, I guess after looking over my list, I have little to complain about...

Abby, did you get my pics?

Quoting KAW:
The way you described the vacuum incident, I preceive that she does understand you are hurting bad, but she also admires and appreciates the effort you are putting forth to work on putting it behind you.
I think you're right, KAW. Two times in the last few weeks she has interpreted my pain of her A as me not wanting to try and fix our M. I used the incident the other day as a way of letting her know I'm working through it as best I can and that I have not given up...even though I DO feel like giving up sometimes.

Quoting RJJ:
Shall I practice my karate kicks for my H and your W?
YES!!! And now I can really picture you doing this!

Thanks guys.

jethro