try to focus on the growing r you have with w, yes there is still a bit of a wall but you cannot make assumptions about what lies on the other side of it (she may not be thinking of a s, she may be feeling badly for what has happend and not want to show it just as you are feeling badly about what happend and don't want to show it) try if you can to let go of the a (I know it's hard) realize that it was not and is not the "cause" of all the r problems it is but one of the symptoms. find the possitives like you and w talking about this and that, spending time with friends, going to church as a family, w hearing the message of the day that you too felt was for you. there are a lot of possitives, focus on them or you will be pulled into a neg world you don't want to live in.
