Thanks so much to everyone for stopping by. I really needed the visits. Saturday and (most of) Sunday really sucked. I want to first respond to a few things, then provide an update because some interesting things happened yesterday.

RJJ, thanks for the hug. I wish it was in person...could'a really used one.

Lisa and Abby, I think you are right about me expecting to forgive and get over this quickly. I guess I do just need to focus on getting through each day, concentrating on my kids and making sure that my needs are met.

Floyd, yesterday I REALLY had an FU attitude towards my W. It was all I could do to control it. I will send you a couple of pics that I just got. Your kids are beautiful and your W looks familiar to me for some reason...

LL, yes I can see you have gone through many of the same machinations that I have about thinking about what you two shared while all of this was going on. Oddly enough, I have almost blocked out much of last year...I don't remember too much. Isn't that wierd? In any case, I did not keep my feelings to myself yesterday. I calmly told my W a couple of things, which I will get to in my next post. BTW, thanks for the hug.

Hoping, I'm sorry to hear about the turn in your sitch. I'll stop by later.

PMA, haven't heard from you before, but thanks for the comedic relief...although I know you were not being entirely funny...

Dienne! I haven't heard from you in a while. Thanks for coming by. My sister is doing much better, thank you.

Quoting JJ:
I know that this probably sounds like a bunch of crap, but it might be something to keep in mind, and to give a try sometime.

Let your actions guide your feelings. Don't let your feelings guide your actions.

JJ, I don't think what you said sounds like a bunch of crap! It kind of makes sense in the action-oriented environment we try and live in. I actually kind of did something nice for her. I vacuumed the house for her. I think it made her feel even worse! I've been trying to look at her with a spiritually-driven kindness, but I just can't do it all of the time. I will try your suggestion more often, however. Thanks for stopping by.

U, I e-mailed you this morning.

Thanks so very much, guys!

jethro