The roller coaster sucks - I know. Just remember your at a low point - look up.
Quote: Great, what's done is done, Sweetcakes, and nothing is going to change the damage you did to US!
Let it all out here. We understand.
Quote: But, will it ever be right? The pain will always exist. The A will have always have been. The thoughts will always be in my mind...although they will dimish more over time.
I think you answered your own question. Your right this is really on her. She is the one that will live w/regret the rest of her life. Until she figures out how to do this she will continue as she is.
Quote: I don't feel like she deserves the new jethro. I feel like I want to find someone that has the same values that I have.
I have thought the same thing. But then I think of the kids and the step parent thing.
I feel like your putting a lot of pressure on yourself to forgive. You cant do that. In fact just go day to day and work on living. Pray for God to help you in the process - but realize it could take months. I know you dont want to hear this but it probably took me 6 months after the EA to get past it and to be in the same room as this woman w/o killing her.
Quote: I'm tired, in a lot of pain, and extremely sad. THANK GOD I have you guys!
We always be here. And dont you forget it. I wish I could do more. No matter how this stitch ends for you just remember you want to be able to look back w/o regret and know that you are doing what is good for you and your kids. Until then ....well ....hang in there.Abby
