hey hon, I totally understand that you feel like it is over, it is very hard to hear from our Ss to tell us they dont' feel anything for us. It took my H many months to have feelings for me, I know you've been piecing vor over 2mths or so, and that is just not enough time. Granted, my H did agree to committ to work on the M and it wasn't a "well see" approach. I wonder if your H is just waiting for something "magical" to happen and to feel love like when you guys first met. It doesn't happen that way the second time around, during piecing all that's left sometimes is commitment, and upon that we build love and trust.
Did he tell you that out of the blue or did you ask him if his feelings have changed? that makes a difference, sometimes us LBS can't leave WAS alone and want their feeligns to change and we prod, thus pushing the S away. I dont' know if this is your case, but I'm wondering when and why did he say that.
About the holiday, when it was booked, who paid for it? if it was him, from his money, then I can see why he expects you to pay your share (although he should be nice enough to have some $ set for his spending and be generous about it).
Perhaps ask him to come less often so you have time to think and detach.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
