Quote: ... she just says she does it because she feels "comfortable" with me.
This is how it was when my wife started her way back. Jethro, its a good thing she feels comfortable. Its her initial interpretation of her feelings of love. In time, she will learn to interpret them in other words too.
Quoting jethro: I'm tired...
I hear ya ... You're tired because you still are trying to steer the process to fit your expectations of what the M should be into the here and now. It takes a lot of mental energy to hold onto these expectations and handle the frustrations that come about because of it. Of coarse, you're tired!
Accept the present for what it is ... better than a year ago, but that your expectations are still down the road, so no sense thinking about them now. You don't need to forget about them, put them away until you know the M is better than it is today.
Accept and go with the flow. Let the current take you through the process rather than trying to steer your way through and you'll discover you can still get where you want to go with less effort and therefore won't feel so worn out.
Sorry to get so heavy with the metaphor, but hopefully it will help you relate.
Hang in there, Jethro, and you will reach the end of the forest and see Emerald City.
