((((((((((AH)))))))))))
You know it is said that right after a breakdown, comes a breakthrough. Everybody has tough days, rough days, days when we do stupid or mean things. This will pass, maybe it already has? A good night's sleep (or two!) can do wonders - are you getting any of those? I hope you will have a better day today. Meanwhile, keep up your walking and try to eat healthy. Take some deep breaths. Hug S and tell him you have been stressed, and you are sorry - everything will work out fine.

Better days are ahead, AH, and you are almost there! And you are loved...

I wish there was something else I could say and do to help. But truth is, you are really doing just fine, this is all just part of it. We are with you ;\)

PositivelyListening
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When one door of happiness closes, another one opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. - Helen Keller