This is going to be a long road. Whatever is or is not going on with POSSIBLE OM today is a very, very small thing. If she has had some kind of EA or PA, she is going to be ALL OVER THE PLACE for a good long while. Any momentary behavior or words are pretty meaningless.
You did take an emotional risk, a huge one. But, the reason you were able to do so is because you don't NEED anything from her, though there are many things you might like.
You are afraid. This is normal. You are impatient. This is normal.
But, you really need to detach and try to get the lay of the land. NOTHING you do in the next 24 hours, however perfect or imperfect it may be will decide the fate of your M.
I think you really could use some help from folks on the other parts of the board, this really goes far beyond SSM and there is a ton of great support out there from folks who have really turned their Ms around into something wonderful.
