I think you need to get a good dose of love for you and work on detaching some more. You are stronger than you think and you need to focus on you and how wonderful you are. Your H is lost no and in the meantime if he ever comes to his senses or even if he never does you need to get strong for YOU!!!!!!
I will check on you again , but in the mean time start to focus more on you PLEASE~ God bless you honey...
