good stuff jethro,

the thing you have to keep reminding yourself of and this is very important so pay close attention here... you are both human!!

just like you have good days and bad days regarding the sit, jsut like sometimes you feel that you can and will get through this and the a wont be an ever looming downer, that all can be well but at times you feel like it may be easier for you to run? your w too has good days and bad. probably facing the same questions, can we get past this, can he get past this, can I live with myself knowing I've done this to him etc..

give it time. take it one day at a time, I know this is not easy, but that is why we are here to let you know that you can do it and that you are certainly not alone in what you are going through!

LL