I know that this may not be exactly appropriate, but I am glad to know I am not alone. I guess I mean that it feels good to know that other people know the emotions that a person goes through with this. I know that it has made me a stronger person, even though I have the days when I feel like I am not so strong. My babies definitely help me in this department, because I am now a single mom of twins and I have been doing it for 6 months on my own (really since they have been born). I don't have anyone to help me whereas when they are with him, he has my 12 year old SD as an extra helping hand. It comes natural for me, because I am their mother and they are so precious. My heart and prayers go out to the both of you. It is amazing to me of how much this occurs and how I was so oblivious until it happened to me. My words of wisdom, are to keep focusing on you, no matter how hard it is. I had to sit down and write a list of things that I have been wanting to do, but have put off to be a wife and a mother. One is going back to school and the other is running a marathon. These two goals are my long term goals and I try to have every day goals as well. Like making sure I read everyday (I love to read). Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers and I think that together (and this is for everyone else out there) we will make it! Remember, we have time on hands, and I believe that time will only allow it to get better for all of us.