I call home to let her know I have arranged a ride to D11's game. I ask how her day is going, how workout went, just light chatting. W is being very quiet, hardly answering. I start to wonder if everything is okay, physically. W sounds very strange.
I try not to, but I finally ask, are you okay? W says sure, why? I told her she sounded very quiet, almost like she was nodding off. W says, "its a lot to think about".
A part of me wanted to chase that rabbit, but the part of me that is getting better at this just said, Yup, gotta go, talk to you later.
A great big chunk of me wants to hope that W is waffling on the S/D. That she is reconsidering and maybe will want to give it one last try. Honestly, if she were willing to give it one more try like she has in the past, within a few months she would see that the changes are legit.
Yet another part of me thinks that W is simply discouraged that it won't be as easy as she hoped it would be, but she is still determined to go through with it. That the only thing she was thinking about was how to make it work on her own.
I don't know. I'm not a mind reader but I wish I was.
