Just make sure you're able to keep your money for youself so you always have that independece if necessary.
Hopefully, because you do enjoy him and care about him, you can be friends and companions while still keeping your finances separated so you don't have to worry about that.
I can understand loving someone, but not fully trusting them, and not wanting your life in their hands (I kind of feel that way myself in my own marriage). So just make sure you have your security and try to enjoy your life in the present, one day at a time.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
