Think about the reasons you decided to get back together and work on your M instead of staying w/ OM.
I have to every day to keep my sanity. And the reasons are mainly my children. If it wasn't for them, I would be totally selfish...maybe...who knows for sure. I felt like H was totally selfish when he left. That still stings big time. How could he do it to the kids? Changed my view of him that is hard to recover from I guess. At least my nuttiness is out of the kids line of fire so to speak. I don't want to hurt them. So I trudge on.
