this OM stirs things up far beyond where your M would on it's own. It adds complication, it adds spice for you, it adds forbidden attention....DRAMA.
I know it GEL. But is it just that it is forbidden? No way. When I was legally separated, I dated this very man and it felt dammm good. He hade me feel sexy, attractive, desirable, smart,...wanted. Was it drama then? I don't even know what my point is. I guess I'm just saying it is easy for people on here to tell me how "fake" or "wrong" or "dramatic" it is but that was my REAL life -darnit! - for many months. It wasn't a complete fantasy world. And now the REALITY is I am struggling, my M is constantly in a state of flux, my H is emotionally withdrawn, a man who gave me a huge part of myself that was missing could be killed any day now. THAT is reality. Drama implies acting/pretending. I'm not acting. I'm feeling all of this every moment of every day. And it hurts. And it causes confusion. And it never seems to end.
