I am not really sure about how I feel about this. Obviously it is a positive step. I feel some apprehension in opening my heart too much or possibly getting my hopes up. I can be patient, but W has a lot more of the work to do here.
I hope that she can do it.
Guarded optimism best describes how I feel.

I might sense a chance that I will get hurt again.

I also feel a danger in getting my hopes up.

I plan on continuing to see a counselor. I almost feel that I need a advocate, because I am a sensitive guy, that I may allow our relationship to go back the way it was in some areas without being firm on the key issues for me.

I need this assurance and commitment at some point.

I suppose this is step one away from being on the brink of divorce.

I wonder, is there something wrong with me? I should be feeling a lot happier, shouldn't I?

IS 49 W 47 S 21 D 19 S 16
M 24y Together 31y
EA Mar04-May 06
PA Feb06-Jun06 EA May07
Bomb Dec 28 07

Footfalls echo in the memory, down the passage which we did not take, towards the door we never opened Into the rose-garden.
T. S. Eliot