I’m starting to wobble again. Not sure I want to go on. I am thinking too much about the photos. Why couldn’t she have just asked for a divorce? I don’t know if I can go on with this GAL. I think I would like to end it and then GAL. I’m just having a bas day I guess. I am still going to ask her out tonight. I think her answer will either help me carry on or will send me over the edge.
I wish I was man enough to just come out and say either we work on our marriage or I start looking for a lawyer. Aside from the actual hurt of the divorce and what affect it will have on my 10 year old son. It sure would make it easier on me. I wouldn’t have to hide her secret from the family. That’s one thing that bothers me a lot. Is “lying” to the family for something I did not do.

I don’t know. Most likely in an hour I’ll be ok again. She should be home about 6:00 -6:30 a lot of ups and downs till then. I think I need to talk to my C again.

And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know