I'm so sorry Sol, no one should have to go through what you are going through. Just keep your wits about you and take care of yourself and your children. Let it all out while you are alone, cry, scream. This way you will be better able to face whatever is ahead of you. You are in my prayers.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon