BIG TUNA still here

[big_tuna]

hi all.....Tuna checking in 26 days post D....very interesting weekend just passed....WAW wanted S16 to go to a play Sat eve and sleep over her sisters house leading up to the Mom's day picnic on sunday.....he refused to go to the sleepover but said he would go to the picnic.....she of course put me in the middle and blamed me for not forcing him to go for the entire weekend...a very recurring theme....anyway she was p/o'ed at both me and s16 but she relented on Mom's day and asked if i could drop him off at the party (45 min away)....i said sure and brought him...hard decision as to just drop him off or go in the house and greet the entire family..i took high road and went in..left after 20 min or so....was very upbeat and everyone seemed happy to see me..i think they all realize the hell she has put me and my boys through...they asked me to stay for dinner but i declined and left soon thereafter...she "walked" me out to my car and the hugging/crying/kissing that has been standard in our situation ensued....i left with mixed emotions but all in all i was happy at the way i handled it....i think she is very confused and her new life post sep/post d isnt developing as she had hoped....these aforementioned things of course lead to me continuing to hope for a miracle while at the same time i realize my only choice now is to move on..i know i should be in " D not done" by now but my great supporters here have always given me great advice and help...i wish the best for all of you here....please keep me and my boys in your prayers....BIG TUNA